ang hirap ng situation ko, especially kng bunso ka...
ako? certified na bunso...
me and my ate, we have this MASSIVE age gap between us... 11 years...
same with my kuya., 8 years...
so just imagine the SHOCK nila mommy and dad nung nalaman nila about him...napaka apprehensive nila...
at first, talagang tago ako... yung laging kinakabahan.. i was always anxious, whenever mum or dad arrives while im talking to him... i always make up excuses... its either "si jo ang kausap ko" or " just someone" hahaha i think in the end naka halata na din sila...
it went to the point na kinuha ni mum yung sim card and phone ko pati internet ko kinuha... pero medyo wise din ako ehh.. meron akong mga "extra" na sim cards na naka kalat lng sa side table ko.. whenever she takes my sim, i make sure that she doesn't get my phone too.. :)) so ayun...
pero alam nyo kng ano yung masakit para sakin? yung na paparanoid ako na baka ma disappoint ko sila mum.. like how my ate and kuya had disappointed them.. i have this huge weight on my shoulders, always telling me, urging me to do the right thing... pero ano ba yung right thing? ano ba yun? di ko alam ehh... alam ko lng, i;m just going with the flow... kahit kelan, impulsive talaga ako.. so sinunod ko yung gusto ko.. so ang labas, stubborn ako... hahaha...
kahit ilang beses na sinabi ng mommy ko sakin na wag na kausapin si sam... na itigil ko na... i say yes pero tuloy parin pag usap ko kay sam... kay sam ko binubuhos lahat nung frustration ko... and natatawa ako kasi even if i rattle on and on about it... he just quietly listens... ang tip nya sakin: "sweetie, just remember, pasok sa right ear, labas sa left. ok?" hanep din no? hahaha.. pero tama xa...
there was one time, me and mum had our usual "little petty argument"... anyway.. i told sam about it and i told him.."don't you dare suggest to break up with me..." hahaha tas he just laughed.. kasi ang tahimik nya... so i felt like it was coming... so ayun... he just laughed it off... saying, "wala naman ako sinasabi..."
so nung first monthsary namen, he sang Always be my Baby tas ginawan ng friend namen ng video... sam isn't into writing... he's the kind of guy who isn't really good expressing his emotions or feelings into words... so if he does, i know he's sincere... sabi nya..."what ever the condition with your parents is, i can wait..." and wait he did...
pero we're getting there... kami ni sam? we're getting there... medyo ok ok na sila mommy ngayon..:D which is really good... sabi nga ng mum ko sakin kanina.. "cay, kami ni dad cool lang kami about this, pero mag ingat ka..." something like that... pero ye yung gist ng sinabi ng mum is mag ingat ako in the sense na dapat i know what i;m doing. be careful with Sam.. yung ganun...
kaninang umaga nga, cause i told mum that he was in the hospital... then she told me, "cay gusto mo ba tawagan si sam?" and i was like. was i hearing it right? was she really suggesting that i call Sam? hahaha... iyt woke me up... pero kanina, when she got home from work, i asked her if i can text him.. she lent me her phone and even agreed to give Sam her roaming number...
so yes people!! we're getting there slowly but surely!!:D
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